When I am feeling unsure of myself, when I have allowed myself to be taken out of my power, when I can not hear my own song.... I consult my Mesa. I usually start by inviting my Faeries to share their wisdom with me, to tell me what they see in my energy that is blocking me.
I usually pull one, but three appeared this time. This is not surprising since I have been feeling confusion, fear but also a strange sense of possibility. The cards presented themselves to me in this order.
|Mesa Reading with my Faeries|
At the far left you see The Glanconer. He represents Illusion, Delusion, Lust, Projection, and clear sight. He told me that when I want something so badly, I fool myself into thinking it is the right thing just because I want it. He asked me to pause before I make any commitments, and to see the truth behind the situation.
At middle you see Arval Parrot. He represents communication. He told me that I should listen closely in the coming days, especially to my dreams. He also pointed to his throat and showed me that we read messages from our throat chakras on an on conscious level, and what I am sensing in correct. He suggested that I be completely honest and open and look for signals of nonverbal communications.
At the far right you see the Bright Mother, in reverse position. This signifies an inability to nurture myself. She told me to be kind, to trust in myself and my growth. She reminded me not to be a martyr, not to sacrifice myself and give until I am too exhausted to nurture myself or allow myself to be nurtured.
|Divination of Stones - What relationship do they have right now?|
Often after a reading, I perform a divination. I ask the stones to show me the energy of their relationship at that moment. What I saw was my Acceptance stone, Emotional Balance Stone, and Wholeness Stone hudled close together. I saw my Hummingbird consciousness closest to my Acceptance, which tells me to focus on the possibility that my issues right now can be resolved with some self Acceptance and support. Serpent and Jaguar consciousness also surround Acceptance as does the Eagle icon I keep in my mesa. This indicated to me that my archetypes were were sending a strong signal to me to support myself no matter what.
What else can you see?
After a divination I try to respect the message and rearrange the energy to best support what needs supporting.This sand painting, as they are called, represents the shift in energy I am creating.
If it had words it would say: "I am completely supported emotionally and financially. I accept myself and know my worth. My world is surrounded by people who know this to be true and honor me fully."